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was good seeing barbara today after not really being in contact for a few months. heh the last 3 days have been absolutely fucking awesome despite the maths tests (i mean they werenet that bad, a bit gruling but i think i did alright and im happy with how i went *THINK i went * ). saturday i saw justin again after missing him for like a year (heh getting in contact with everyone again is great… must be that time of year) and met his dawa, good shit happened on sunday and everything seemed really good, monday (aka today) i had a maths test but yeah barabara and finally finding dropkick murphys – as one after all that searching is good (AWESOME song, bagpipes and rock, reminds me of goldfinger only irish/scottish). lol oh yeah and i finally remembered to see nea after an exam to get my invitation.

hmmm not sure why i write this blog, but hell in months/years time itll be nostalgic and i wouldnt mind a record. plus i like to think some people read it to releive bordom…

hehe shit i realised that i havent hired out a suit yet and things may be in short supply. meh.
im not going with anyone asyet but i think i might ask someone after the 3unit maths test… meh i dont know ill have to think if i really want to and if i have a chance or not

righto, ive calmed down

maths next, but i think ill be alright for that, and things might be picking up with friends again.

today was good, Justin has been back in australia for a little while now, but i saw him for the first time today and met Dawa. hes pretty cool and i should be seeing more of them so yeah things are cool.

Yep. Guess ive failed english well and truly. didnt do great in yesterdays test, and i still havent studied for tomorrows so im gonna fail that. FUCK. FUCK YOU HSC I MEAN WHY THE FUCK IS IT COMPULSORY! FUCKING MAYBE I DONT LIKE ENGLISH! MAYBE I DONT WANT TO DO ENGLISH! butttt nooo you can choose other subjects on the basis that you might like them better, be better at them, and its all scaled in an attempt to make any choice valid. Still english is compolsory. how fucking biased.

heheheh yeah they rock, i know i should be studying but meh im easily distracted

I ate fairly full meals today and havent had anything negative from it yet so thats a good sign, yesterday i couldnt really eat and friday night i was confined to bed with really horrible cramps.

hsc soon, ive got practically no stress about anything EXCEPT english. and english is first

argh i can finally get out of bed after the last few days of not being able to move and constantly aving the urge to throw up. it wqas really nasty, i saw the doctor andehe said it was a virus but yeah apparently its going away now. had me worried for a while what with the hsc starting on monday.

Confuzzled is my middle name!
Im in a reasonable mood at the moment, i mean things are looking up all things considered and ive finally got the net again after a week and a half (thank fuck for that).
Still. a heap of things are confusing me and im not really sure how to deal with them so im just letting it happen and sitting back for the ride. interesting times…..

ive found so much cool stuff in the telstra unmetered sites in the last 2 hours, theres 24/7 video clips streaming, plus you can downlaod ones form the archives, thebasement.com has live streaming from the club plus archives aaswell, and you can downlaod interviews and songs (some videos, others audio). plus the tv footage of every game in afl, nrl, a heap of gaming and computer related stuff, fuck you name it its there.
which rocks cause it frees up my download limit for more important things…

back home after a week and a half at dads with only like 5 mins on the internet
not happy about this whole situation with my parents, theyre taking it to court now which can only mean bad things, luckily i should be out of here next year and into uni (hopefully), but i still worry about what itll do to my family, which sucks.

Party was great, I drank more last night than ive ever had in one sitting before. Got completely hammered, and it felt like it too. felix dave and tim are stayinbg over tonigt aswell (just writing then entry then im sleeping).

Despite that im still not completely happy, feeling really depressed actually, which sucks, especially since i dont want to be. Its putting alot of doubt about my future into my mind, and i just filled out my uni application a few days ago and i can change preferences for the next few months. I thought I knew exactly what I wanted to do but now im not so sure, its disconcerting.
Then theres my usual unhappy reasons .

Barbara send me an email from Barcelona.. HI BARB, ill email you back soon, i promise, just lots of stuff happening and ive started the reply about 5 times and find im having trouble writing what i want to say down. Ill get round to it.

tbats all I can say for now, my brain is a bit addled, i think i did some bad things last night (not bad bad, just think i may have endangered a friendship), ill make a happier, more eventful entry after ive slept.

party in 4/5 hours, a few people are coming round soon (early) and I think they want to have a LAN in the middle fo the other party…. hell im not going to stop them, this should be amusing one way or the other, i wonder if theyll pull it off.