god i hate feeling left out, with any of my computer inclined friends i feel really comfortable because they are fairly accepting of me, and the differences between us all makes everything interesting. with my other friends though i always feel left out, even if they have quirks aswell i still feel like im the odd one out, the freak. i know its not logical to think this way, and it might not be right but i just cant help feeling like this… im almost certain ill read this entry later when im feeling a bit better or more cautious and decide its too dangerous for people to read and send it into the void but fuck it i dont care right now, i wonder if theres a way i cant prevent myself from ever deleting it… i doubt it.